What I have learned these past three weeks is that people are simply incredible. I have learned that, when I let them, people step up in amazing ways, to be there for me. When I let them, people will go out of their way to make me smile and make me feel just a little bit better.
What I have learned these past three weeks is that I am surrounded by people who care. Carla and I are surrounded by people who are rooting for us. We have amazing people in our lives who are as excited at the thought of us having a child as we are. Not only, however, are they there to celebrate the successes, but they are there in so many incredible ways to help us pick up the pieces after things don't work out how we would want them to.
What I have learned these past three weeks is that this process is grueling. As frustrating as the paperwork stage of the process was, this stage is so much more heart wrenching. We have absolutely no control over what happens. When we are frustrated, there is absolutely nothing that we can do. This is where we are. This is what we are doing. This is the process that I have faith in, that I believe will work for us one day, that I know creates the best possible situation for the child. This is what we are doing. Though it can be heartbreaking, we are in it now.
But, the other thing that I have learned these past three weeks is that we are incredibly strong. Yes, we crumbled when we heard it was a no. But then, somehow, we have been able to pull it all back together and keep on going. Because that is what you do. That is how you build a family. No matter what circumstances you are faced with, that is what you do. That is what we are choosing to do. That is what we will keep on doing, until that one magnificent day comes when we get a phone call and it's a yes. That's why we will keep going.